Korigjime

I woke up today as I opened my eyes a bizarre feeling crepping in.

I freezed for a while I felt empty, lonely and nothing.

It was really hard to get up, I had many things to be done though.

I don't know why I have such a feeling like this.

Everything seems wrong right now.

I had been in this kind of situation many times and I passed it, but why the feeling goes after me like trying to catch me. does time ever get tired? it never stops ticking . when I was a little girl I envied my sister I wan't to grow up as fast as I can.

Being an adult seems to be cool.

I wanted to go collage and get a decent job, make a lot of money, and get married with the one I love.

Now I'm not officially having those stuff but I'm on going.

It's not really easy being an adult you have more responsibilities on your shoulder.

And when I get tired I ask the time to stop for a couple minutes.

But he never listen.

I have no options I keep moving even if only a step.

As I grew up I realized that I'm getting wise.

I met many new people we talk a lot about many things It broaden my point of few. now everything seems so blurry when you put your self in the amid of something grey.

I started lose my faith on my belief.

I was so sad to know that disney is not real, reality is hars I wish I could go back to be a little girl I will enjoy every second I have because I know I won't ever get it back again.

In the name of productivity I push my self so hard telling her that you are not good enough until the day when waking up is hard to do.